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Tuesday, 14 August 2007

Thursday, 02 August 2007

  • ON HOLS

    hey girls!

    soz haven't been on in AGES been so busy with all kinds of things with the end of the school year but now it's the hols and i'm back on!

    INtake:

    b= raisons and peanuts 50kcal

    OUTtake:

    3hr tennis

    and that's as far into the day as i am, lol!

    anyways doing LOADS better am now (in american sizes) a size 4, 2 sizes from size 0 and i'm so close to fitting a size 2 but i refuse to buy them until i can run my finger along the inside, all the way around, and i'm SO close but i don't have access to a set of scales but just to let you know: no-one panic about weight if you use a different set of scales, seriously, i weighed myself on one and then a different one and weighed 2.5lbs more! lol! anyways stay strong all my girlies and remember the emily diet (form the devil wears prada) "I eat nothing, and then when i'm about to faint i eat a cube of cheese..." lol! or nigel "Not since 2 became the new 4 and 0 became the new 2"

    quick question: Someone told me that size 0 models have been banned; is this true?

    love to you all

    charisma_x

    happy dieting xx

Sunday, 08 July 2007

  • Oh...

    Yesterday, I binged... and I put on 3lbs... I panicked but mom said dinner was ready, she made me eat all of it, I felt worse than I've ever felt before... I considered suicide. I actually did, I thought if I went to see Steve, he would make me feel better. I feel bad leaving everything on him but if I tell any of my other friends, it could put presure on them, besides I'm the one people come to for advice, if someone came to me, who was exactly like me, I would know exactly what steps to take, how to listen, because it's how I want to be listened to. Dad said I couldn't go out. Panic, Panic. I ran into the study, looking. Wasn't there. Grabbed a compass and ran upstairs. I had to cut in the same place several times to draw blood, but I did, six marks, 1 for each half a lb I put on.

    It is my new punishment, and now I'm looking at Steves sign, he gave to me to wear and it's covering up the marks, that now are real, but they weren't yesterday, and I'm not afraid, and I'm not upset, it's just real.

    charisma_x

    thinspo icons, sorry this entry was so depressing, if i've lost weight i'll cheer up :T

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Thursday, 05 July 2007

  • SPLASHDOWN!

    WOOOO! i had SO much fun, it was great but afterwards we all went out for lunch and i couldn't have anything :( which was a shame but worth it to lose weight!) we almost got thrown out though, for trying to stop ourselves on the water slides, making chains with the ringos, going down one after the other, really quickly but i don't care!

    INTAKE

    b= toast 98kcal

    l=skipped

    d= vegetable soup 128kcal

    total= 226kcal (woop woop!)

    OUTTAKES

    ran everywhere while at splashdown, 1hr swimming, 20mins toning, 1hr yoga, 45 mins ballet

    yay! but i need to drink more water, i hardly drink anything some leg thinspo:

Wednesday, 04 July 2007

  • I DID IT!

    I made it, with one day to spare I lost enough weght to not punish myself on the trip 2mmo by being a fashion disaster in front of the year! woop woop!

    intake: b=toast with nothing on 110kcal

             l=skipped

             d=rice, 1/4quiche, vegetables 430

    uh-oh total= 540kcal .... more than i've had all week, oops. ah wel i was working ALL day!

    outtake= 1hr swimming, 4hrs doing garden work, running from place to place fetching things, i hate comunity volunteer work, it's SO boring!, 1hr trampolining/hi-energy dance, 15min toning,  15min yoga/pilates

    can't wait until splashdown 2moz! woop woop!

    love to you all!

    charisma_x here's some upbeat thinspo to keep you all on that treadmill!